It’s been a while

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!

And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry

- Staind

…well nothing quite as dramatic as that but it HAS been a while since I blogged and posted and browsed and commented…and everything else blogospheric.

So, a lot has happened since the time I discovered “my music personality”

Bliss: Loads of new books bought – some purely because I was getting a good price (Tolstoy’s Anna Karenina for 99 Rs.!) and many that I had been on the lookout for well, a while…; loads of new movies watched and new music discovered and heard – and if I weren’t the truly lazy person I am I would tell you more about these!

Anticipation/Apprehension: On the professional front, things are looking up a bit – well actually don’t know if it is ‘up’ yet but certainly new things happening there – a new project, a client-site visit, and a dream-come-true opportunity to work with – in whatever capacity – a person I really admire/respect AND like! In all of this, I am expected to travel out of the country for the first ever time in my life sometime in Jan – something I had managed to successfully procrastinate for all these years.

Madness/Chaos: My personal life.

Oh! And I love the fact that winters are finally here! As a proud McChicken connoisseur, I emphatically declare: I’m loving it!

Ah well. Until I have something new to say in a less lazy fashion.